As if my life could get any crazier!

So I am once again completely up in the air with regards to what is going on in my life. Just when I thought things were starting to calm down, something else goes haywire! I had been having health problems for awhile and thought that everything was finally starting to get back to normal. I went to the doctor (a new doctor) for some routine blood tests and found out that I may have, not one, but two serious illnesses! I sat in the chair at the doctors and thought "how can my life change so much with just a few little words!" My outlook on life at this moment is very different than the one I had even this morning at 11:59. Life is such a fragile balance and it doesn't take much for the balance to be tinkered with and you are left reeling. I don't understand why this would happen to me when I thought I was pretty healthy. Sure I had a few small things that could have been better but I was working on them and thought they were getting better. Sometimes I don't understand the way God works. I don't know whether I have these illnesses or what if going on but it terrifies me just the same. I am confused and afraid of what may be coming in the next few weeks, but I know that God hasn't abandoned me. He is still the ruler of all and the all powerful God. I know that He will do what is best for me in my life. Help me God, to remember that promise whatever comes my way. Thank you for my amazing husband who is an incredible source of strength for me.

Important Things

Today I have been thinking about what is really important in my life. I have been married for two years, two months, and 22 days. This time has been one of the most precious periods of my life. God has blessed me with an amazing husband who loves and cares for me more than I deserve! He has become so much a part of my life that I could not imagine going on without him. He is one of the most important things in my life. There are so many sad things happening in the world today and one of the saddest is what is happening to families. So often now we hear stories of broken families and ruined marriages. This is not what is supposed to happen. Why is marriage treated with such flippancy? I understand that marriage is hard. We have had our share of struggles but to give up seems so sad. What is our world coming to when we trade spouses like we change our hairstyles? Whatever happened to "Till death do us part"? It is so sad to me to consider the pain and sorrow that is haunting so many families because of adultery, infidelity, and divorce. Marriage can be such a blessing if you keep it in good repair. We can't let problems get to the point where we can do such harm to our marriages and our spouses.

Life is hard and requires a lot of effort but if something is truly important to you, it is worth putting in the required effort. My marriage is important to me. It is more important than anything else apart from God and I am committed to its success. My wedding vows are promises that I have made and intend to keep no matter what trials come our way. My prayer today is that people who take similar vows would take them seriously and not cast aside the love and commitment of a spouse on a whim. Lord help us all to be true to our commitments!

It's all new!

So its been awhile since I posted on my blog and I thought I better write something. We recently moved to a new city and it has been an interesting change for me. The scenery is gorgeous here. We are in the middle of fall and the leaves on the trees are slowly changing to beautiful shades of orange and yellow. There are crisp leaves skipping along the sidewalks as the brisk wind blows them to and fro. At times I feel like one of those leaves. My life has been turned upside down in the last month or so. I was happy in my plans for the year and thought that I had everything figured out when all of a sudden everything that I had planned and had wanted to do in the upcoming months went flying out the window and away before I could catch them. All it took was a small gust of wind to turn my life all topsy turvy. I do not regret our move nor hold hard feelings about the reason for moving, I am simply learning to adjust. Why do you think God works in this way? Why does He let you think that one thing is going to happen and then all of a sudden with no warning you are set on another, completely different path? As I sit here and watch the leaves frolicking in the autumn wind I am reminded of the circumstances of life and how delicate life itself is. I don't think that we as Christians or as humans for that matter truly understand how fragile life is or how easily our lives can be changed. All it took for these leaves was a bit of cold and wind and they are removed from their home and left to wander on their own. I am so glad that my life is in the hands of God and that no matter how far I go in this world I am not alone.
This past month in a new city has taught me a lot about priorities. I have realized that family is a huge priority for me. I always knew that it was but when you lose all the familiar things in life such as place, church, the apartment we had, job, etc. you start to understand what things you really need to hold on to. And for me that thing is family ( and friends!! =) ) . I am very close to my family and it is hard to me to be separated from them. I have had to rely on God more for companionship and for strength than I have had to before, when I was in a familiar, comfortable place. Its hard being in a new city with no familiar things. Even the small things are different like the grocery store and where you used to store your toilet paper. I don't have a handy little cupboard anymore and so I had to be creative and learn new ways of doing things and new places to go. Its made my husband and I closer in some ways because we are more thankful to have each other. To make this move alone would have been very hard but to have a spouse that embarks on these new adventures with you is phenomenal! Marriage is such a blessing from God!
Life is good and God is amazing!